- Contemplating what I want to do in the future professionally, and what steps I need to take to get there.
- Being anxious about the time that I am wasting because I can't take any steps towards my future, because I really have no clue what I want to do.
- Wondering if I will ever be able to get myself out of stupid debt, that I can barely account for.
- Feeling insecure about my body, and the way I present myself to the world.
- Hoping I am not stuck living at home forever.
- Being afraid of what happens when you die.
- Not feeling capable of protecting Gemma from...life.
- Wishing I could better manage my time.
- Fretting over a messy house.
- Thinking I may never get married, that I may never find "the one."
- Missing friends.
- Wanting new friends.
- Shame.
- Trying to figure out how I got here.
- Making mental lists of things I want to do, need to do, should have done, could have done, and all variations.
I consider her, and I sleep.
What keeps you up at night?
The not feeling capable of protecting Merritt from life is a big one for me. The baby isn't even 8 months old and I'm already worried about bullies!
ReplyDeleteKacie, I've never met you, but your words are amazing. I hope you know that you should feel such pride about what a wonderful Momma you are!
I'm not afraid of dying per se, but I am worry myself sick thinking about what would happen to my son if I died suddenly.
ReplyDeleteI used to worry about friends too, both missing them and wanting new ones, but I finally just gave it up and started focusing on myself and I discovered that I was much happier not thinking about it. :)
Take care,
Jess
I worry about me dying too, and what would happen to Spencer if I died. I can't really think about it because it makes me sick to my stomach. And I worry about her all the time- keeping her safe, keeping her healthy, etc. I feel like I'm worried about something all time. ugh.
ReplyDeleteAlmost every single thing you listed keep me up at night, too. If I'd made it a list, it'd be almost identical to yours. Which is just crazy to me... I feel so alone so often that it's a wonder to me that someone else, that I've never met, shares my EXACT thoughts.
ReplyDeleteAlmost everything you listed and a few other things keep me up night. Like, I'll think about things I want to make but then I forget by morning.
ReplyDeleteWhat keeps me up at night is fearing court.
ReplyDeleteI'm a single mommy as well and will soon be going to court to fight all that comes with it. custody,visits, etc... ughhh
Thing will eventually fall into place. Just have hope. =)