Today, was my last day as a stay at home mom.
For now at least.
I can't believe we have finally come to this place and I am excited and terrified at the same time. After today, I will not be the only person who takes care of Gemma.
I am going to have to share my job with a babysitter.
Scary. She seems great (the babysitter), but still. It is so hard.
I will still get to spend most days with Gemma. I will work 5-9 (p.m.) during the week and then full days (8-5) every other weekend. We will still be able to have days like today, Target runs and iced caramel macchiatos from Starbucks and trips to the post office.
I probably shouldn't be whining. Errands aren't much fun and it will be nice to have a little money when I am running around, not to mention I have been bored out of my mind for months so getting out of the house will be great.
But leaving Gemma is a big deal. A HUGE deal. We haven't been apart for a combined 30 hours her entire life and now we will be apart 30 hours a week.
I am scared. I don't want to share. I want some things to stay the same.
Deep down though, I know everything will be okay. More than okay actually, I think this is the first step in a positive direction. Things will be great.
Wish me luck!