Tuesday, December 8, 2009

My Body

Does anyone remember that song? By Keith Sweat. I used to LOVE it. I guess it really doesn't matter if you remember the song or not because it is entirely irrelevant to the matter at hand.


Up to this point I have refrained from writing much about my "post-baby bod" and how I feel about it and that can mostly be attributed to the fact that I haven't really taken the time to really think about it.

Until recently that is. My dad surprised me by giving me some cash to buy myself clothes with. It was such a nice gesture as I really haven't bought much for myself here recently (single motherhood tends to have that effect.) Unfortunately, as I have gone from store to store shopping I have realized NOTHING fits. Literally, nothing. Even when I size up. Multiple sizes.

It is strange because as I have mentioned before I lost all of the baby weight and then some. So why doesn't a size 12 fit when I wore a 6 before (but my size 6 pre-pregnancy jeans fit fine?!?!). I am completely and totally stumped as to what is going on here.

Granted I have creeped up another 5 pounds (I guess that is what I diet of Pepsi, Pringles, and frozen French fries will do to you) but still, what is going on here?

I guess my issues are not really size as much as shape. I used to be so much...tighter I guess. Not just in my stomach but in my arms and thighs as well. Now I feel so, jello-y and blah. Like I said, I was a size 6 before so I wan't tiny (I know that isn't huge either, I was very medium) but I was so much sleeker. Although I didn't even realize it then.

I used to be really great at dressing for my body and now I have no clue. Is it even possible to hide the loose tummy skin or do you just have to embrace it?

And I know your body takes a while to return to "normal" but how long is a while? A year? 6 months? Have I reached my new normal already?

I really need some idea of what to expect here.

In case you haven't noticed, I am freaking out just a little.

And don't even get me started on the stretch marks.

How will I ever find a husband now ;)



  1. I am in the EXACT SAME SITUATION HERE. I'm usually a size 6, and I've lost ALL of my baby weight, and all of a sudden BAM! NOTHING FITS. NOTHING. i feel like a fucking whale, even though the scale says I'm under what I was pre-preggo.

  2. You guys are probably still trying on clothes in the hip juniors section. You have to get over yourselves and embrace adulthood. If you need help finding the "moms" section, just keep your eyes peeled for khaki, tunics, and lots of pleats. If there are any ripped denim jeans or denim skirts above the knee, you're in the wrong place.

    But seriously, I know how you feel. There is hope. After my first was born {over six years ago}, I regained my tight, young body pretty quickly. I still went from a six to an eight somehow.

    Mostly my advice is to start wearing clothes that fit. Don't be intimidated by the number on the tag. Or the letter. I'm guilty of buying a Miley Cyrus tee shirt in an XL at wal-mart recently because it was purple and had a peacock feather on it. I have no shame. If you tell anyone, I won't be your friend anymore.

    Hang tough, Kacie.

  3. Ha, well at least you all are not STILL in your maternity pants. My hips and thighs are still huge. I was a size 7 in juniors before Zakiah and now I just don't know what I am because I refuse to buy any new pants right now.

    But I agree with Stephanie. We need to upgrade to the women's department. I used to dread going through that section but needless to say, there are some cute stuff over there (noticed I said SOME and not ALL because there are indeed some over the top items being sold in that department). I figure by next spring I will be down to a size where I am comfortable to go shopping for pants again. Just be happy you lost your pregnancy weight! :)