Does anyone remember that song? By Keith Sweat. I used to LOVE it. I guess it really doesn't matter if you remember the song or not because it is entirely irrelevant to the matter at hand.
Up to this point I have refrained from writing much about my "post-baby bod" and how I feel about it and that can mostly be attributed to the fact that I haven't really taken the time to really think about it.
Until recently that is. My dad surprised me by giving me some cash to buy myself clothes with. It was such a nice gesture as I really haven't bought much for myself here recently (single motherhood tends to have that effect.) Unfortunately, as I have gone from store to store shopping I have realized NOTHING fits. Literally, nothing. Even when I size up. Multiple sizes.
It is strange because as I have mentioned before I lost all of the baby weight and then some. So why doesn't a size 12 fit when I wore a 6 before (but my size 6 pre-pregnancy jeans fit fine?!?!). I am completely and totally stumped as to what is going on here.
Granted I have creeped up another 5 pounds (I guess that is what I diet of Pepsi, Pringles, and frozen French fries will do to you) but still, what is going on here?
I guess my issues are not really size as much as shape. I used to be so much...tighter I guess. Not just in my stomach but in my arms and thighs as well. Now I feel so, jello-y and blah. Like I said, I was a size 6 before so I wan't tiny (I know that isn't huge either, I was very medium) but I was so much sleeker. Although I didn't even realize it then.
I used to be really great at dressing for my body and now I have no clue. Is it even possible to hide the loose tummy skin or do you just have to embrace it?
And I know your body takes a while to return to "normal" but how long is a while? A year? 6 months? Have I reached my new normal already?
I really need some idea of what to expect here.
In case you haven't noticed, I am freaking out just a little.
And don't even get me started on the stretch marks.
How will I ever find a husband now ;)