Doubt

My grad school application is finally in.

In as in sent and received by the school.

In as in completely out of my hands.

Last week I had a bit of a hang up...It is a lot to explain but basically my head was swarming with default/deferment/holds and other awesome things that happen when you never receive a student loan bill.

Oops.

But now, the hang up is un-hung.

And I am doubting myself.

All along, I have told myself, "When I go to grad school."

And now, I see that it is merely a possibility.

My entire life plan is a possibility.

Scary stuff.

I think about how I should have applied sooner.

And certainly I was crazy for only applying to one place.

Ugh.

I am totally doubting myself.

This. Sucks.