This is both good and bad.
It is good because I am pushing myself to get out and find friends. Even though my sister and I fought like cats and dogs (yep, I'm mature...and awesome) being around her was still not being alone, ya know? So now that she is gone, and Gemma is becoming more and more her own little person every day, I have decided it is time for both Gemma and I to make friends. Just this week we have scheduled a Mommy & Me excercise class, a MOMS group open house, toddler story time at the library, AND a picnic. This is definitely progress for us. Definitely.
(just because she is cute, a picture from the library last week)
The bad part is...I'm slacking. With nobody to hold me accountable, I am not quite as strict about things as I used to be.
Feeding Gemma chicken nuggets. (From McDonald's).
Allowing Gemma to watch a DVR'd copy La La Lullaby (it is like 2 or 3 minutes long), with my dad, 5 times in a row so that I can eat dinner.
Turning the t.v. on Sprout for long enough to put her hair in a pony tail.
Forgetting to wash clothes the night before our exercise thing today and dressing Gemma in her birthday outfit and wearing a hard letter sorority shirt myself.
Not asking the sitter to stop when she tells me that she is letting Gemma drink juice at her house, even though all I give her is milk and water.
Yep...I suck...these are my confessions.
Oh, and yesterday I smoked a cigarette! Just one, and it was my first in almost 2 years.
Don't tell anyone, please!
Like I said...I'm awesome.
P.S. The nuggets were a one time thing, PROMISE!